We Have to have Faith in God's Mercy If We Want Healing

Our Lord Heals the Blind Man

"And they came to him, bringing one sick of the palsy, who was carried by four. And when they could not offer him unto him for the multitude, they uncovered the roof where he was; and opening it, they let down the bed wherein the man sick of the palsy lay. And when Jesus had seen their faith, he saith to the sick of the palsy: Son, thy sins are forgiven thee." --Holy Gospel according to St. Mark II, 3-5

Excerpt from the Holy Gospel of the Mass yesterday (Seventh Sunday in Ordinary Time, Year B, Ordinary Form) but I will also quote part of the Holy Gospel of the Mass of Quinquagesima Sunday (Extraordinary Form) which was yesterday because they're related to what I want to say.

"And Jesus standing, commanded him to be brought unto him. And when he was come near, he asked him, Saying: What wilt thou that I do to thee? But he said: Lord, that I may see. And Jesus said to him: Receive thy sight: thy faith hath made thee whole." --Holy Gospel according to St. Luke XVIII, 40-42

Two examples from the life-giving and expiating words of the Holy Gospels where those who believe are healed by Faith in God.  Both men were ardently and hastily seeking Jesus that He would heal them and the Lord took pity and told them that their Faith had made them whole or healed.  Their physical conditions (being paralyzed and being blind respectively) are representative of our sinful nature and how we are powerless to do anything about them through our own power, but through belief in God our sins are covered and we are made new.

But why do we continue in our sins?  Well, from what I've experience personally and observed, none of us run to the Sacrament of Penance or go through crazy measures (like creating a whole in the roof of a crowded place and lowering ourselves in just to get to Christ) to be healed.  The blind man was rebuked for crying out to God to have mercy on him, but he cried out even louder.  I think I definitely need to show God much more effort and haste when seeking to be united with Him, instead of wondering whether or not I'm ready for forgiveness etc etc.  If I'm not ready, I'm not ready, but try anyways (our priests are supposed to determine whether or not we receive absolution, not us).

The other important thing is both of these men had Faith, and they didn't hesitate.  That's our problem today.  We hesitate too much because we reason with ourselves how improbable things are instead of letting God be in control.  That, or we dont' want to give up our sins.  Or both.  These are very hard hurdles for me to jump over.  Maybe it's not as bad as it seems all the time; it may be me trying to protect myself from spiritual pride and arrogance. 

"For what saith the scripture? Abraham believed God, and it was reputed to him unto justice."  (Epistle of St. Paul the Apostle to the Romans IV, 3)

Anyone who has knowledge of what the Scriptures say about Faith and what the Church has taught about it knows that belief in God is not a virtue we ourselves can practice apart from His Grace and God giving the gift.  So we who believe should always thank God for our belief and put it into action otherwise our belief is vain and really not belief anymore...  (thank you St. James the Apostle (whichever one wrote the Epistle, Greater or Less)). 

We must always pray for those who do not believe that God would put it in their hearts to believe in Him and in His promises.  Say those Apostles' Creeds and make Acts of Faith.

Now pray for me as I try to put this into practice for my self...  Because I hesitate way too much.